For almost as long as I can remember, I have had the title of a “good student”. Typically, I take my schoolwork pretty seriously. I work hard on my homework assignments, and I usually fare pretty well in my classes as a result.
I wish I could say this was because I always cared a lot about the specific assignment, or simply because I am just a really smart individual… but to tell the truth, I think it often has more to do with a kind of fear of failure, and conversely—a near constant and impossible struggle for perfection.
When it comes to school or work, this kind of attitude can definitely have its benefits; but I am realizing more and more as I grow up that there is a significant difference between desiring/really working to be your absolute best, and struggling in vain to meet some vague and undefined standard of perfection out of fear of failure.
As a Christian, I know that God tells me to “be perfect” as He is perfect. But seeking perfection for perfection’s sake isn’t exactly the message of the gospel. I think sometimes us Christians get too bogged down in this struggle for perfection, and somewhere along the line we forget that this life is not supposed to be a struggle we face on our own.
The truth is that the minute we start to think we are alone, or that failure is something even worth being afraid of, we have already lost the battle. When it comes down to it, a Christian is not someone who thinks he or she is perfect. A Christian is someone who knows and offers all that they are to the one who is.
“…As for me, I will glorify Thee by manifesting how good Thou art to sinners. In me Thou will show that Thy mercy is superior to all our malice, that nothing can exhaust it, and that no relapse, however shameful and culpable it may be, should make a sinner lose hope in Thy forgiveness”